One year since I got over my addiction....

[Maury V.]

Hey guys.

I've been on NG.com for 14 years now. Some of you all that know me know how I was when I created threads like "Thicky thick club" and "big boob thread" and all that jazz years ago.

Well. July 2015 I made the biggest decision of my life.

I gave up porn.

Quick backstory. In April 2000, I almost successfully killed myself. I was 14 and went through a LOT of shit. By the grace of God and my little brother (who I almost traumatized for life by hanging myself in front of him), I stopped. As a result, I fell into a HARSH depression. I turned to porn as a way to cope (yeah, I went through some real shit in 8th grade).

Throughout those 15 years, I felt a NEED to watch porn. I killed I don't know how many computers in my house with my addiction. I didn't realize my lack of control was hurting others and myself.

Women were afraid to be around me. My mind wasn't right. I had no energy. I didn't feel like I could do anything cause porn and my lack of self control kept me from doing what I NEEDED to do.

July 4, 2015. Something in me said that great things were going to happen to me. Thing is, I had to get rid of my porn. Prior to that day, I knew I had an addiction but I couldn't get rid of it. On this day, I was able to get rid of it easily. Broke my CDs, DVDs, and deleted ALL of my files on my computers and hard drives (I probably had at least 50GB worth of porn).

This month marks my one year of getting over my addiction and i've made a SHIT ton of accomplishments since then. My body is healthier, my voice is the way it should be (I lost testosterone from jacking it), i'm not anxious around people (especially women), I have a strong presence, and I have a LOT of energy.

I'm not here to say that porn is bad. I'm an artist and I would be a hypocrite to say that porn isn't art. The addiction to it was the problem.

I used to be afraid to share this with folks but now I don't even care. Getting over my addiction also helped me get over shame.

Take care folks and thanks for reading!

 

[Liquid Snake]

Thanks for sharing!!!

 

[FilthyRear]

Congrats!

Oh, wait... Ew...

 

[LoneSage]

Guys is it true you lose testosterone from hitting the airplane

 

[Maury V.]

Guys is it true you lose testosterone from hitting the airplane

If you hit it IN the airplane, you can raise it up.

 

[sylvie]

i'm addicted to porn and it defines my personality. it used to be more of an obsession than it is now. now its just a casual thing that i need in some capacity daily. i've found that i used to be VERY uncomfortable if i didn't have all my wallpapers on my electronic devices set to a pornographic image that I favored. Each variety of porn has its own appeal. Amateur, high production, magazines vs. videos. etc.. I have a lot of VHS tapes that I LOVE more than almost anything.

I'm glad to hear you axed it if thats what you needed to do. But damn, pornography is a very important addiction for me!!!!

 

[Setherial]

Don 't we all watch porn?

 

[Yodd]

So are we talking once a day? Couple times a day?

 

[Maury V.]

So are we talking once a day? Couple times a day?

Yes.

It got to the point I was watching it in public places.

I couldn't get in a proper relationship with a woman either because I tried to act out my porn fantasies. Shit sucked when I was overseas.

 

[evil wasabi]

Merc used to fill buckets each day with the the double barrel chorizo thunder crack, while watching Belladonna get freaky in the stinky with the likes of Rocco, Ferraro, Luigi and Wario. In a moth he would have an entire room filled with buckets like the sacrifice chamber in Prometheus, filled with the urns of xenomorph dna. Merc's dna, no different, had been known to attack communists and terrorists alike, face hugging them, before creeping into their carcasses and then chest bursting them. "You're... Already dead." it was say after tearing through human waste. But then he met the woman of his dreams at a roller derby death match. Belladonna was quickly forgotten, and the buckets left empty for years. Merc could have been the end of days, flooding this world with an unstoppable dna that would relentlessly scamper through every nook and cranny looking for earth beings to fuck to death, but one woman saved us.

 

[aha2940]

I killed I don't know how many computers in my house with my addiction.

How you killed them? came on the board? honestly curious.

I probably had at least 50GB worth of porn

Noob. 4x2TB hard drives filled to the brim with pr0n, most of it being German stuff is a lot of pr0n. 50GB is almost nothing.

Take care folks and thanks for reading!

Thanks for sharing man. Glad you enjoy your pr0n-less life

 

[Maury V.]

Merc used to fill buckets each day with the the double barrel chorizo thunder crack, while watching Belladonna get freaky in the stinky with the likes of Rocco, Ferraro, Luigi and Wario. In a moth he would have an entire room filled with buckets like the sacrifice chamber in Prometheus, filled with the urns of xenomorph dna. Merc's dna, no different, had been known to attack communists and terrorists alike, face hugging them, before creeping into their carcasses and then chest bursting them. "You're... Already dead." it was say after tearing through human waste. But then he met the woman of his dreams at a roller derby death match. Belladonna was quickly forgotten, and the buckets left empty for years. Merc could have been the end of days, flooding this world with an unstoppable dna that would relentlessly scamper through every nook and cranny looking for earth beings to fuck to death, but one woman saved us.

Fucking hell, I miss his posts like that. And yeah, he has settled down greatly. His kids and his woman did that for him. He's a helluva man, that Merc is.

 

[uiengineer]

I used to watch quite a bit, though never to the point of NEEDING it, etc. Now it is more casual (once or twice a week when doing my thing)

Congrats on breaking the cycle and getting clean.

 

[Maury V.]

How you killed them? came on the board? honestly curious.

Viruses. Without fail, every computer I touched with porn would often freeze up. Now that I think about it, i'm not sure if it was overheating or I had memory that failed... This seems to happen with my PCs and NEVER with my Macbook

Noob. 4x2TB hard drives filled to the brim with pr0n, most of it being German stuff is a lot of pr0n. 50GB is almost nothing.

True but I knew where to find free sites. The stuff I had on my HD was stuff I COULDN'T find on stream sites. Older Bang Bros. and Reality King stuff was legit in the early 2000s.

Thanks for sharing man. Glad you enjoy your pr0n-less life

Anytime. I posted a testimony on my personal site and some folks said I saved their life. I got over my addiction by reading WHY porn addiction is bad and it saved my life. Paying it forward.

 

[Lemony Vengeance]

you know it's an addiction when it gets between you and being a responsible adult, like skipping work to watch it or staying up all night to view it.

Addiction is a real thing, man. Salutations to you for recognizing it and eliminating it from your life.

 

[jro]

Guys is it true you lose testosterone from hitting the airplane

No.

 

[StaticX]

Congrats dude, I used to watch the stuff all the time. Felt like it came (doh) inbetween me and women or getting a girl. I used the gym and got back into bboying to help and got back into the Neo as well.
Without sounding gross maury, I'm in my early 30s but since I've been doing more gym and no porn at all I noticed my hard ons showing up as well out of no where and I completely tire out my gf in bed. She is 7 years younger then I am.

So I hope all the good things in life keep coming your way brother. Sorry if I was ranting.

 

[100proof]

Thanks for sharing and congrats to you. Not sure what you've replaced your addiction with (because if you truly have an addict's brain, it's damn near impossible to "just stop" without transferring that need on to something else) but hopefully it's something healthy that you're passionate about. It's the reason so many recovering addicts find Jesus, become obsessed with fitness or dive head first in to a hobby or a career. Addiction is an open electrical wire in your brain that needs an outlet to disperse.

 

[DevilRedeemed]

yeah anything that get's between you and your ability to be happy is best to put to one side so I'm glad you have found motivation and peace enough that you can set your own agenda.
there's nothing wrong with acting out some fantasies, as long as you're not subjecting the other person to something they don't want to be involved in. but kinky shit can be fun. just maybe not all the time.
take it easy bro.

 

[HornheaDD]

I haven't downloaded porn in probably 8 or so years. You guys know about the internet, right? There's so much porn out there on these sites that do this thing called "streaming." haha

 

[evil wasabi]

I haven't downloaded porn in probably 8 or so years. You guys know about the internet, right? There's so much porn out there on these sites that do this thing called "streaming." haha

Streaming is ok, but not watching it at all is the best. Leaves you with the sexual hunger to make moves. Animals, after sex, do very little. Lions pass out; preying mantises die. Denying oneself changes a lot. Makes a person more aggressive.

 

[BladeDancer314]

this thread makes Jayden Jaymes very sad

 

[sylvie]

Streaming is ok, but not watching it at all is the best. Leaves you with the sexual hunger to make moves. Animals, after sex, do very little. Lions pass out; preying mantises die. Denying oneself changes a lot. Makes a person more aggressive.

this is my favorite part of not having sex

 

[wyo]

Streaming is ok, but not watching it at all is the best. Leaves you with the sexual hunger to make moves. Animals, after sex, do very little. Lions pass out; preying mantises die. Denying oneself changes a lot. Makes a person more aggressive.

Warning: May lead to rape, terrorism and Sylvie.

 

[sylvie]

I'M OUTTA LUCK
I'M OUTTA LOVE
GOT A PHOTOGRAPH, PICTURE OF
PASSION KILLER YOU'RE TOO MUCH
YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I WANNA TOUUCHHH