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45? most people think i'm between 30 and 35. i just turned 26, actually.kernow said:holy shit falk you look about 45? what gives?
well ... dunno. i'm my parents only child and my 12 years older cousin always used to be like a sister for me. huge influence right from the start and most people thought she was my gf, when she came with us on vacation in 2001. (after her boyfriend lost it and went crazy, btw.)
i think another major influence was a 23 years older woman that i had a crush on, when i was 16. yes, she still is an amazing lady and to this day quite important to me. she's the cousin of my parents' best friends and got something like an aunt for me. that being said ... my fav aunt (my 12 years older cousin's mom) died at the age of about 50, when i was 13 and my granny, who sort of raised me died a month after my 8th birthday.
thing is ... the lady i mentioned helped me with moving to kassel, finding a flat and getting started at uni. it's a long story and i really don't want to go too much into detail, but i have the feeling that something's not right. you know ... she's been there for me and all and i can't deal with the thought that such a wonderful human being might not be happy herself. problem is that she didn't really talk to me in almost 3 years, but still doesn't seem to want to let go entirely.
dunno ... rough times and a feeling of responsibility, regrets and guilt, maybe ...
living in kassel isn't exactly easy/fun and during these four years that i spent here, i almost died twice. the first time in car accident and the second time because of an overdose of painkillers. (hear that, Mike? be carefull!) the painkiller thing was because of an infected ear that didn't get better, which is why the whole nerve got infected ... right down to my wisdom teeth. bad thing was that my mom heard it through the phone, that i could barely breath anymore. could hardly convince her that everything was ok and passed out a few minutes later.
meh ... there were many more fucked up things and thoughts that i had to deal with on my own. can't think of another reason ...
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oh ... and i didn't even wear my glasses, when i took those pics.