Ten years is a long time, considering I was in my early teens. I did most of my major changing around 17, 18.
I was a lazy alcoholic drug user who did nothing but sit around, play video games, and eat. I hated work, and frequently jumped from job to job. I let other people do everything for me while I sat back and manipulated them. I had a large amount of misdirected anger and cynicism. I constantly hopped around from one spiritual aspiration to another, never spending any time grounding myself in any of them. I spent money like a fucking barfly, and would blow a pay check in a few hours on dope, booze, and other shit I didn't need. I was cocky, pretentious, arrogant, and shallow. I made a lot of people around me suffer, and as long as it was myself experiencing a gain of some kind, I didn't care and had a hell of a fun time doing it. I was "in a band".
I have turned laziness into cunning, alcoholism into not-alcoholism, and I ditched drugs completely. I have come to an understanding with my work life; I don't necessarily love it, but I do my job, and I am in a decent position. I don't use people anymore; if someone pisses me off, if I have a problem with them, I don't go on a rampage to crush them, I just get them out of my way, and move on. I have a healthy, incredulous cynicism; I'm not brooding and gullible. I have a Wife to support whom I love, and it's not always about me anymore. I have become much better off financially, and can actually handle money properly. I am into video games, but my experience with them does not exceed more than a few minutes a day; a game of Metal Slug here, level in Contra there. I spend a lot of time on that hobby in terms of collecting, displaying, etc. because it was always my dream to have a loaded game room; it's really out of nostalgia. I am altogether much more well rounded, much more easy going, and more focused on what I want in life.
But I'm still kinda fat.