MHojoMoko: But they really are out to get me.
LASNER OWNZ J00: ....Listen, I am going to open up to you here and tell you something personal:
LASNER OWNZ J00: Okay?
MHojoMoko: Take a look at the guys at Neo-Geo.com, they are all out to get me.
MHojoMoko: OK
LASNER OWNZ J00: I am telling you, you bring it upon yourself somehow.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Okay, here is what I wanted to say.
MHojoMoko: It is the way I look and hold myself.
MHojoMoko: how I hold myself - I have a "kick me" sign on my back and people stare at me because of it.
MHojoMoko: Anyway, go on....
LASNER OWNZ J00: I've found that my biggest weakness is lust. I've had numerous negative experience resulting from sexual incontinence. I've found something interesting from this though. When I do something negative (like if I jack off to porn- which I have, and I always feel really badly about it because when I do that I'm being controlled by my animal side and not being the best I can be), then my day actually gets shitty. Here's an example:
MHojoMoko: I don't look at porn that much anymore.
MHojoMoko: Because I can't believe that I will ever have a woman.
MHojoMoko: I had rather just jack off to myself....funny ehh?
LASNER OWNZ J00: I had a day when I woke up, met a cute girl, talked to her. We didn't have much in common but she was nice to me and she lives near me, so it was beneficial that at least this happened instead of not happening. Then, in the middle of the day, I jacked off to porn. After this, the rest of the day sucked- I saw some girls that I had chatted with before, and they seemed disconcerted and we didn't have a very smooth interaction. I felt like people were less receptive to me all day and not nice to me.
MHojoMoko: ;-)
MHojoMoko: Women are starting to actually turn me off - if you are interested to know.
MHojoMoko: That is strange to me.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Now, listen to what I'm saying: I am *positive* that because of my sexual incontinence, giving in to a lower part of my nature, I subsequently was cursing myself, in the sense that I gave off negative vibes and didn't get good reception from people the rest of the day.
MHojoMoko: However, porn is not my problem.
MHojoMoko: I see what you mean though.
MHojoMoko: Porn can do that to people.
LASNER OWNZ J00: So I believe there is a form of Karma which is self-inflicted and uncontrollable.
LASNER OWNZ J00: At least, uncontrollable except by doing the right thing.
MHojoMoko: However, I never felt bad about looking at it.
MHojoMoko: I see...
MHojoMoko: I am a horney bastard though...
MHojoMoko: Want to know about something funny?
LASNER OWNZ J00: I don't think Karma is supernatural- I think it's subconscious signaling to other people how you feel and what your general state of well being is, and if it's negative then they will not be receptive to you- and doing bad things will make it negative.
LASNER OWNZ J00: What?
MHojoMoko: I have never had a wet dream in my entire life.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Wow.
LASNER OWNZ J00: This is incredibly fascinating.
MHojoMoko: I don't see jacking off as bad. It is only bad because some people say that it is bad. I am not worried about it. I am worried about being too negative.
MHojoMoko: Really?
MHojoMoko: I am serious about that.
MHojoMoko: I only dream of blood and gore.
MHojoMoko: I see nothing but war and conflict in my dreams.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Well, I just feel like it's giving in to the lower part of my nature, so it makes me feel badly, but maybe that's because my standards are too high. I don't even look at hardcore pornography, because it will make me feel too sick with myself. I just look at softcore sometimes, and then feel badly because I am succumbing to my lower nature.
MHojoMoko: I can't remember a happy dream.
MHojoMoko: I don't think that I have ever even had a happy dream.
MHojoMoko: Hell, I have looked at the most hardcore of the hardcore.
MHojoMoko: I looked at it when I was about 14 years old - hardcore porn that is.
MHojoMoko: I wouldn't worry about it if I were you. It is a natural thing to be interested.
MHojoMoko: Tell me, have you ever had a .... "Home run?"
LASNER OWNZ J00: Well, but it's part of the lower nature, is what I am saying. To me it's the same thing--
LASNER OWNZ J00: What's a home run?
MHojoMoko: OK
MHojoMoko: Getting Laid....
MHojoMoko: It is an old term for it.
LASNER OWNZ J00: I'm not too familiar with that lingo.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Oh, right. That's not really used in my generation.
MHojoMoko: I was just wondering...
MHojoMoko: sex...
LASNER OWNZ J00: But yeah, I guess I'll tell you.
MHojoMoko: Have you ever done the wild thing...
LASNER OWNZ J00: Yes, I had a long-term relationship in high school, which was my first time.
MHojoMoko: You know....hanky panky
LASNER OWNZ J00: I waited until about 8 months into the relationship. We stayed together almost two years.
MHojoMoko: It isn't my business but I thought I would ask since we are on that topic.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Yeah, whatever, I guess it doesn't hurt anything to tell you.
MHojoMoko: That's nice...
MHojoMoko: Nope
MHojoMoko: You can tell me anything...
LASNER OWNZ J00: It was really a mixed bag, to tell you the truth.
MHojoMoko: You already told me that you like to have fun with yourself so why not.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Physically, it was great- emotionally, it was great, most of the time. But a lot of the time sex can be destructive.
LASNER OWNZ J00: LOL, I said I *don't* like to have fun with myself.
MHojoMoko: Oh?
MHojoMoko: I will take what you got and trade you what I got.
MHojoMoko: You won't be happy with what I got though.
MHojoMoko: I know about that.
MHojoMoko: :-P
MHojoMoko: OK
LASNER OWNZ J00: I'm just saying, that to everything there's an upside and downside, usually, and sex is no exception.
MHojoMoko: She can have fun with you for you.
MHojoMoko: Now that would be fun.
LASNER OWNZ J00: I don't really understand what you mean.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Could you rephrase?
MHojoMoko: I will take whatever I can get for now.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Uh-huh.
MHojoMoko: I was talking dirty.
MHojoMoko: I meant she could "Play" with you instead of you "playing" with yourself.
MHojoMoko: In other words, she jacks you off since you don't like to do it yourself...
MHojoMoko: Get me chief?
LASNER OWNZ J00: Well, I think that you shouldn't give up until you've exhausted every possibility, and so after ---okay, whatever----- after we stop chatting then why don't you look up some meditation places?
MHojoMoko: Now, that would be a turn on for sure....
MHojoMoko: ;-)
MHojoMoko: I will give it a shot.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Okay.
MHojoMoko: I know a guy who might be able to help me with this project.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Now, can I post this conversation? I think it's really valuable.
LASNER OWNZ J00: It gives a lot of insight.
MHojoMoko: Well, it has been nice talking to you but I need to get some food because it is almost 6 PM here.
MHojoMoko: Go ahead if you like.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Okay.
LASNER OWNZ J00: Talk to you later, bye.
MHojoMoko: Kool
MHojoMoko: I will be downloading some stuff.
MHojoMoko: Bye bye!
MHojoMoko: :-)
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Wow... there's a lot of food for thought there. Comments, gentlemen?
