Vampirella is my muse, DZ knows this, sad golden wings of destiny.
Just let go, man.
That music hasn't made you happy the way you need it to since you were a kid. Now it just reminds you of happy times in reflection of how shit just isn't clicking in real life...
Let go.
I did let go of the metal persona. Fuck I was being nicknamed "Metal Chris" in some circles 'cause Chris is such a common name here in the US and my last name is a conundrum. Fucking still getting the "You're Metal Chris?...but you're wearing Sperry Top Siders?!" Seriously though, ever since I cut my hair I've been settling in as a regular human being, wearing decent human being clothes and shit like that. Metal is my favorite music genre without a doubt but I listen to a little bit of everything except country, I can withstand it if it means girls gonna get friendly but that's about it.
I'm open though, you wouldn't even be able to tell the type of mad trasher I once was...
Ok on the happy aspect. These days I stick mostly with progressive metal, more robust composition, better lyrics, top musicianship, top class vocals. I've always sided with the virtuoso but not as much as now.
On the other hand going back to the past; Kreator is coming OCT 25th and I have a feeling this could be my last hurrah since I haven't seen them since my teens. I will lay it all out on the mosh pit for a last stand, the final stand, I will take it as far as it demands and then more, just one last stride, one last passage to that kid I left behind, there will be tears but not that night, I will destroy everything and everyone that night, seriously don't want to think about consequences, just want to be free one last time...
...if I make it back, I think I'll be a different man...same old crazy fuck but anew somehow.
