I hate god
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Life certainly has it's fair share of ups and downs.
You gotta roll with punches my friend, it is tough at times but a fun ride while it lasts.
Best wishes for you stepdad, hope he recovers.
You gotta roll with punches my friend, it is tough at times but a fun ride while it lasts.
Best wishes for you stepdad, hope he recovers.
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It's ok God's fucking with me too. I don't hate God. Just wish he'd do more for us all.
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Loopz
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Despite our scene-related differences, I wouldn't wish this kind of thing on anyone. I lost my stepfather a little over a month ago to cancer. All you can really do is try to put your grief and shock aside and try to focus on being there for your mother. Hopefully things will improve...modern medicine is capable of some truly miraculous things. Things could radically change for your stepdad...just hope for the best. Do your damndest to stay positive.
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dr.r.muckly
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wow i thought i was the only one having a bad day
hopefully things will get a little better for us all
hopefully things will get a little better for us all
Shin Guile X
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Originally posted by Cappadonna:
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BryLmoo might not be able to take this like others would.
I understand his grief, and I have to say: I told you before that everything would be OK, and I'm going to tell you again.
Just roll with it man.
You know I have to everyday.
I hope he recovers soon.</strong><hr></blockquote>
Very well put. If you would have asked me last year at this time I would have said the same thing, that I fucking HATE God. But blaming him isn't going to get you anywhere.
I feel like I can talk about this stuff now that I am out of it but for the last 8 years I have had to deal with some serious shit. Back in June 94 my brother was officially labelled a Bi-Poler manic depressive. The stories I could tell would take all day, but he basically became totally nuts. He has tryed killing me multiple times. He has cut me with knives, hit me over the head with frying pans and multiple other things. That was the easy part. Helping my Mother deal with it was the hard part. I lost all my friends from the ordeal but it was worth it, helping my Mother. She became my best friend, as corny as that sounds.
I spent 8 years with my Mother trying to help her deal with all the stress my Brother and Father put her through. I let her vent to me. The problem was I had know one to vent to. So I took it all. My brother's desease threw everything off. My parents could never be alone and stuff like that and it caused major shit.
And after 8 years of putting my life on hold what was my reward?? I got to watch my Mother die. I don't care what it is but when you put 8 years of your life in something or for a cause you want to see some type of results. It wasn't meant to be.
But I didn't get drunk once or turn to drugs or anything like that. I took it on the chin and told myself that if I can do this I can do anything. And I did. Life can't break me.
In this last month of Oct. I have gotten my driver's license, got a job, have met a lot of people and the last two weeks am having a ball going to the bars/clubs meeting girls and stuff like that. I am trully alive again.
My point (sorry for the long post) is that as bad as life may be, you just have to live it and sooner or later things will turn around. And I trully hope your Father gets better. My 96 year aunt had a stroke about a year ago and she is doing fine. So there IS hope
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slerch666
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You guys can't blame God. Well, you CAN blame God, but it won't do you any good.
What, you think God is here to service you and cater to your needs and wants? Fuck that. Live your life for yourself, don't wait for things to happen and don't expect God to give you things, just because you think life isn't fair and your life sucks. Well guess what, life isn't fair. It's been proven time and time again. Find the strength to make your own future and your own decisions, not relying on "God" to give you the things you think you deserve. You think you deserve something? They go and get it for yourself. Things have more value when you have to work for them than they do when they are given to you. THe harder you work for something, the better it feels when you actually achieve something.
Sorry BryLmoo to hear about your father, but look at it this way, at least he's still alive. Live it up while you can because everyone dies eventually. Now that you know your father/family/friends aren't invincible and immortal, enjoy the time you have with them, 'cause you never know when the shit's gonna end. It you'll hopefully regret it less when it does, inevitably, end.
Best wishes to your father.
What, you think God is here to service you and cater to your needs and wants? Fuck that. Live your life for yourself, don't wait for things to happen and don't expect God to give you things, just because you think life isn't fair and your life sucks. Well guess what, life isn't fair. It's been proven time and time again. Find the strength to make your own future and your own decisions, not relying on "God" to give you the things you think you deserve. You think you deserve something? They go and get it for yourself. Things have more value when you have to work for them than they do when they are given to you. THe harder you work for something, the better it feels when you actually achieve something.
Sorry BryLmoo to hear about your father, but look at it this way, at least he's still alive. Live it up while you can because everyone dies eventually. Now that you know your father/family/friends aren't invincible and immortal, enjoy the time you have with them, 'cause you never know when the shit's gonna end. It you'll hopefully regret it less when it does, inevitably, end.
Best wishes to your father.
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I really appreciate everyones concern. I've been at the hospital all day long and I am really tired. My step dad had another stroke while he was in the hospital, and his speech was slured for a little while, but, it got better. I hope this whole thing will get better with time. I really never thought something like this would happen infront of me again like it did with my dad, but I guess I was wrong. Nothing is going good for me right now. I shouldn't blame god for this, but, he hasn't done anything for me lately besides give me trouble.
Bryan
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Sorry to hear about your step-dad. Your initial post gave me the impression that a lot of shit has happened to your family.
Though we've never spoken, remember that you have a lot of friends on the forum who will lend you an ear. Use them, that's what they're there for.
Take care.
Though we've never spoken, remember that you have a lot of friends on the forum who will lend you an ear. Use them, that's what they're there for.
Take care.